Confessions of A Perfect Person

I started this blog as a means of tracking my weight loss journey & keeping myself motivated, It turned into so much more along the way and I have loved every second of it. I always wrote about the good times but most importantly I wrote about the bad times,

Me before I started at 13st 10.5lbs  & when I reached goal at 11st 7lbs

The last few months have been difficult for me, my bad habbits crept in, I lost control and my weight crept up and I have found myself 13lbs over goal. During the last few months I have avoided blogging, I felt that if I couldn't blog from a positive place then I shouldn't do it, I became a leader a year ago and since then I have felt that I needed to be seen as 100% focused and on track all of the time, I needed to be perfect. I was afraid to come on here and tell you all how horribly wrong things were going because I was trying to maintain the image of a perfect leader. So I didn't tell you about the time I ate a whole pizza, or the time I ate an extra large chocolate bar in one sitting or the time I went to the cinema and had a medium popcorn, 2 scoops of Ben & Jerrys and a share bag of minstrels all to myself...yes I have done all of these things! The truth is I am not 100% perfect.The truth is there is no such thing.

Me now at 12st 6lbs

I am a perfectly normal human being.

I have my struggles
I have food issues
I have weight problems
I can fall of the wagon
But I can get back on!

So that is what I am doing right now, I am owning up, I am being honest, I am writing about the bad times and I am getting back on track.

where I will be for the next 13 weeks and beyond!

I am setting myself a goal. I want to loose 13lbs and get back to my goal weight by July 1st, That gives me 13 weeks. I know this goal is realistic and achievable and that's very important, I lost 31.5lbs in 32 weeks to get to goal ,so I averaged out at a 1lb a week weight loss.

Do you need a goal to help keep you focused? Why not join in my challenge and aim to loose 13lbs by July 1st. In 13 weeks I will be confident in my summer clothes and fingers crossed wearing a bikini to the beach! who's with me?

What would happen?

What would happen if you stick to the program 100% for a week?...

Well, you would loose weight!

That is the question my leader put to my class tonight when I told her that my challenge for myself this week was to stick to the Pro Points plan 100% for the next seven days. It seems pretty obvious doesn't it? However, sometimes we loose sight of that simple little fact, do it properly and reap the rewards!

For the last few weeks I have been up and down the same 1 or 2 lbs, it's been frustrating, but I am the only person to blame. You are not going to achieve your goals by messing around and cheating the program, you can't loose weight like that. As a gold member I know this, I know what to do in order to loose weight, for some reason over the last few weeks I chose not to do it. I chose to cheat, mess and guess. I willing engaged in behavior that I knew would cause me to gain weight and not lose it!

A reminder of what I have achieved

Why? why would I do that? 

I honestly can't give a straight answer to that question, I had a goal, I wanted to get back to goal for my tip to Krakow, that trip is now ten days away and I am still 6lbs to goal.

My tracker all ready to go!

I am not going to focus on what I didn't achieve over the last few weeks. So what, I wont be at goal for my trip, but I can lose a couple of pounds in ten days. I might not get to goal for christmas but I know I will get there in january if not. I wont allow myself to feel like a failure, what matters is what I do now, and now I can see that if I follow the program 100% I will lose weight and for the first time in many, many weeks it seems simple and I know that I can do it!